Feeling Loss
Have you ever felt the pain of losing someone you love? That heart-wrenching feeling where every part of your being aches? One day they are there, and the next, they are gone, and you realise that you can never see them in their physical form again, left with only memories, and you would do anything to squeeze them one more time and to show them how much you care. Love is love and comes in all shapes and sizes.
Some might think this feeling could only come from the loss of another human, but for those with animals that they love like family, the bond you have with them is hard to describe. My husband and I choose not to have children, and our dogs are our furry children. They are our world, our little family, and you spend every day together, so of course, when one passes, their presence will be missed, and life will not feel the same.
Unlike humans, there is no judgement from your furry friend, they love you unconditionally, consistently every day, and that is special. From the moment you walk through the door, they show so much excitement; their loyalty astounds me. They seem to intuitively know when you need love and emotional support, an instant stress relief, staring up at you with those big puppy dog eyes.
My husband and I recently lost one of our furbabies, Rambo, Bulldog, 13 years old, and we will forever hold him in our hearts. He was a much-loved character, and we are lucky to have had him in our lives for as long as we did. He taught us and our French bulldog, Reggie, so much about love and now loss, and we will never forget him.
In the past, I would have drowned this feeling under bottles of wine and anything else I could find in the cupboard. A way to not have to feel in that moment because facing the feeling was too painful. It makes me so proud to know that I am at the point where I know that this would not help and by actually feeling into the moment, I am not delaying this process until further down the line. I had the most amazing friends and family supporting me, even if it did have to be from a distance.
To those that reached out at the time and offered kind words of support, thank you x